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15.5 weeks...

Weds, I had my next appointment I am now 15.5 weeks pregnant and in the second trimester, Wahooo, I have made it this far!! Pretty exciting! Everything looked good, and it was awesome to see the ultrasound, they sure have grown!! It's pretty crazy to see the changes each time! They actually look like babies now! haha... And things have calmed down, I haven't had spotting in the last few days, no sign on the ultrasound of the mean old Subchronic Hemmorage that haunted/haunts me, so I don't have to go back for 4 weeks! Yay! And at my next appointment we get the real ultrasound that gives us ALL the DETAILS if you know what I mean! ;-) lol... I can't wait! Hopefully I have enough to keep my mind pre-occupied for 4 more weeks!! I have also lost a bit more weight, which I am not complaining, I don't know where it's coming off, cause to me I just look like I am getting bigger! But I will take it!!

13 weeks...

I had my next 2 week check-up, I am now at 13 weeks, it's my last week in the first trimester that's a bit surreal, I am so excited! I am still on watch cause I'm still having a few complications with my hemmorage, but they couldn't see it on the ultrasound so, we think it's slowly absorbing and breaking up and that's what I am still shedding, that we have to watch.. So I get to go back again in another 2 weeks, which is fine by me, It's good to have reassurance often! So this time with the ultrasound again Twin A was going wild!! The doctor always wants to see the heartbeats, but it was all over the place I think the saw one beat and it was flipping around again! It looked like it was doing somersalts, it was pretty funny to watch! Then we go to the other twin, and it's sleeping!! We watched it heartbeat for a bit and it looked great! The doctor was joking saying that while one was having a party next door the other was passed out taking a nap! It was pretty awesome to see the difference! We had such a good look at Twin B, it was such a cool experience!!! So things are looking up, both babies are doing great, hemmorage was undetectable on this ultrasound, so now if I can just stop shedding it that would be GREAT! Also just when I thought that I was starting to feel a little better two day streak with not throwing up (without medication), the nausea & throwing up came back and reminded me that it's not done bothering me yet!! I really wish I could find that one thing that just hits the spot and makes me feel good, but honestly I know I NEED and HAVE to eat, but if I didn't have to right now, I would be fine with that!! I am thrilled though that everything is still moving along, and in the right direction, I wish I could close my eyes and have it be 20 weeks though! Dust and I can't wait to know what we are having, the second we know, let the SHOPPING begin!! ;-)

Active two...

So the following Monday approaches April 4th, and it's time to go see the Dr after our intense week! We go in and right to an ultrasound... Twin A is wild this time moving around like crazy it was moving all it's limbs it was amazing, still saw it's heartbeating! Twin B was also moving around and it's heart was beating also!! AW, I can breath!! Big sigh! A full week later there is two babies still active and growing, they already have changed again!! And this time I could see the hemmorage on the u/s it almost looked like another empty sac in the uterus! Stupid thang, go away!! He said that hopefully it will go away, as the babies continue to grow it will push it in and it SHOULD absorb, and let's keep our fingers crossed it won't cause problems! At this point I had no spotting or bleeding anymore, so I was feeling great! But he did say that I could have some dark brown spotting and clots, that's ok, it's dried blood. Sorry I know gross! But this is my story and what I dealing with right now! And at this appointment I have lost 12 plus pounds from being so sick!! I haven't mentioned that much but I have a hard time keeping foods down, he gave me a perscription, let's hope it hepls!! I don't mind the weightloss, but if it affects my babies getting what they need it does, so far it's ok, but It's not pleasant being a porcelain goddess! Well I go back in two weeks for my next appointment, I am now HIGH HIGH RISK! Twins and a hemmorage! Well so far it's been quite an experience for us!!! Staying positive!!!

A Nightmare......SNEEZE!!! No way!

Monday March 28th started off like any other day, Draggin my butt out of bed feeling like I could stay there for ever!! Get ready, drive to work, get through the day munching on goldfish trying to keep my tummy settled, but by the time I get home, it's usually done playing nice, I change into my sweats and head to the couch, relaxation time. We are sitting watching t.v. and ah ah ah, CHOOOO - I sneezed really hard, and then yelled OUCH, and noticed that yes, I peed my pants! Oh geez not again!! I go upstairs, clean up and change my clothes, ya a little embarassing. I sit back down and I feel as if I am peeing my pants again, what the.... I go upstairs and I FREAK!! It's NOT pee!! I am bleeding!! DUSTINNNNNNN, It wasn't just like oh I am spotting let's see what happens, it's like oh my hell I don't have a good feeling this is not right!! So we take no chances, I have been down this road before and this CAN'T be happening!!! I was hysterical, but trying my hardest to stay calm, ha, right! We jumped in the car and off to the Emergency Room we flew!! The car was SILENT and we just held hands while tears just rolled down my face! I couldn't help the thoughts that were running through my head. As we are walking in I can just feel it flowing, so unsettling! We get to the front desk and check in, the gal is like HUGE pregnant as I am telling her what's going on in between my tears and inconsistant breathing! We are sitting for which seemed like forever in the waiting room!! Finally they call me back, AND the lady that is helping is ALSO big belly Pregnant!! REALLY!!! This is not helping! They ask me what's going on, and then say ya we see this often, if it is a miscarriage there is really nothing we can do about it, but we will take a look! OH DON'T SAY THAT!!!! She then takes my blood pressure - HIGH, My Pulse - HIGH... Um I think you're really anxious... I wanted to say NO shit, you think!! But I held back and said well I could have told you that, that was my nice way of putting it. Then they take me to another room where he starts taking my blood, and he takes like 6 or more tubes of blood! Then he says k, go back to the waiting room cause there are no rooms open, we will call you when one opens up! UGH! Now I have a tube hanging out of my vein in my arm, bloody pants (so embarassing), throwing up, and bawling! This is a nightmare! Finally a room opens up, They hook me to an IV, give me nausea medicine and watch my blood pressure and pulse... cause they are high! The ER doctor now comes in and says so your 10 wks pregnant and bleeding, well that isn't a good sign and there's nothing we can do about it, most likely a miscarriage, but we will get you in for an ultrasound to see what's happening. Ok, well, that was re-assuring thank you!! GOSH! I mean couldn't they just say oh that's got to be scary but let's hope for the best, there are other reasons, so let's see what's going on in there! I mean keep some positivity in there, and you're curious why my stats are off the charts right now!! I haven't had any reassurance since I walked in those doors! SO I am laying in the bed trying to calm myself with Dust sitting there with this blank look on his face, but lovingly saying it will be ok!! So the u/s tech comes in and says ok lets go to see what's happening. I stand up and get into the wheelchair.. Off we go with Dust following behind! We pull up to the room, up I go again but this time I was freaked, I was dripping!!! and I look down and there is a trail!! I look at Dust and his face just has worry written all over it!! (later he tells me it was all down the hall and he was scared!) So onto the u/s table to finally see.... TWO BABIES!!! Twin B was chillen and it's heartbeat was perfect it measured 9w6d, it looked perfect!! Twin A on the other hand was WILD, it was moving all over the place, the lady kept sayin you have a wild one on your hands, it took forever to get it's heartbeat cause it was moving around so much! Finally got it and it's heartbeat was just a tad quicker than the other one but was good also, it measured 9w3d, another perfect baby! Tears and relief came over me the second I heard each heartbeat!! But then she says well now we have to find where this blood is coming from! She couldn't tell us more than that... We were in there for probably an hour and she was looking at everything if my cervix was closed, and I am not sure what else at the time.. I was still concerned but as of now I knew they were still with us, fighting to hang on!! I have two fighters inside, and Dust and I will fight on the outside!! She walks out and says she will take the results to the head radiologist and see if he wants to come take a look or if what she's got is enough. She comes back and says ok, we are ok to go back to the room! So up I go again and another gush! So concerning, what is going ON!?! Luckily I wasn't really in pain, I wasn't really crampy so that was a good sign! Back to my room we go! I am now feeling some sort of relief knowing that both babies were there! My heartrate came down and do did my pulse, oh GOOD! About 45 mins later the Dr comes back and says well you are a lucky one! You have the best news we could give you right now, It's not very often we get to say that babies are looking ok! But what has happened is that a tiny part of Twin A's placenta has come detatched, and has a subchronic hemmorage between it and my uterus!! I am told that there is still a chance of miscarriage if it happens to affect the babies, but as of now it's not! But if the bleeding worsens or continues for much longer we may have to end it, cause you could lose to much blood!! WHAT! Ugh, so the worry isn't completely over, WILL IT EVER END!?! I can't go through this! But eventually I am released, things are ok enough that I can go home. I am put on bedrest, and told not to do really anything, no exercise, no lifting... yada yada, and to get with my OB in the morning! I am so TIRED and an emotional WRECK! I go home and straight to bed at this time it's about midnight!! So the next morning, I call the OB's office, um my Dr. isn't in today! WHAT! Well, they pass the information on and tell me to just stay on bedrest and call back tomorrow! But if bleeding worsens to go back to the ER. But that day I really had just spotting, phew!! It was so minimal to what had happend last night that I had a feeling of some relief that I was ok! I ended up just laying on the couch and was given Vampire Diaries by Jay at work so what better time to start the series! It was good, I liked it and kept my mind occupied! So now Weds approaches and I call my Dr's office and leave a message with the nurse about the previous events.... While I continuing to lay there and continue with my Vampire Diaries marathon! lol By this day the bleeding is still just spotting not much, and I do have an ok feeling about the babies hanging in there! Finally around 2:00 pm I get a call from my Dr. himself. We talked and he just said to hang in there and keep takin it easy, since they say the babies and all looked fine Monday night and the bleeding has calmed we will give you a week..... At first I was upset I wanted more reassurance, but then I figured that I guess all I can do is take care of myself and these two and not stress!! Just have to take it easy, and pray that these two will stay with us, and know how much they are wanted and needed!! I still can't believe that a SNEEZE, caused this trip, well there's NO for sure thing that causes Subchronic Hematomas to happen but the sneeze ruptured mine and brought it to our attention! It was one of the scariest and rattling moments!! But as of now, all is still progressing, and it will continue too!!

8 weeks...

8 weeks yay but Boy oh Boy, am I exhausted all the time lately... I feel like I could just sleep non-stop! Plus I have nausea most of the time, nothing really ever sounds good to eat at this point, and every night is a nightmare! Every night is my "morning sickness". I can't keep anything down. It's been rough! I am not complaining, well sorta sounds like it, but I know plenty of people have experienced this and lived, so I can too!! It's just not 100% pleasant! But it couldn't be for a better reason Right!?! So I went to see my actual OB this week, and got another ultrasound, but let's just say his machine was no good! lol, it looked a 100 years old, and all we could see was circles, you couldn't make them out! Um, ya I miss my RE's office already!!He even made a comment that my previous stuff was probably way more high tech! Ahh, YA they were, but I guess they have to be! But he said that everything looked good!! So that's always a good feeling!!! So I am not scheduled to go back until April, I will be 12.5 weeks. Ok, babies keep growing!!

7.5 weeks... Heartbeats!

Twins has well, Sort of sank in... it's time to go and make sure both have strong heartbeats! This is the one we can't wait to see, I have never gotten this far, and they say once there's heartbeats your chances of miscarriage go down a little! We head in and there are still two babies, and they have already changed so much from the week before, they don't look to much like babies yet, but you can tell they are starting to take shape, it's amazing the difference!! But there were TWO heartbeats we got to see and hear them both!! What an AMAZING feel that was!! We are still progressing, and I am starting to feel pregnant... I feel nausea all the time! But worth it!

6 week SURPRISE!!

Feb 28th was the beginning of our 6th week of pregnancy, and we had an appointment scheduled to see our little one!! Dust and I were SOO excited, we couldn't wait!!! They called us back and I just couldn't stop smiling, I see my nurse, Who's name is also Carrie, and she's all are you ready to see, cause I know I am! ;) We all couldn't wait!!

So........ Here we go, Oh, there it is, Do you SEE IT!! OH WAIT, there is another ONE, let's make sure there's not THREE... WAIT WHAT.... Phew, Ok, Nope Just two!! I turned and said TWO Dust!! Twins!! Dust was just GRINNING from EAR to EAR... It was AMAZING!! TWINS!

It was still early, we couldn't see heartbeats, so we scheduled an appt for a week and a half later...

I can't believe it!! TWINS!!!

The entire ride home, that's all I kept saying... TWINS, TWINS, I can't believe it!!

Oh MY!! It's happening!!!

The wait from Feb 7th (transfer date) until Feb 17th (beta test) seemed like forever!! But one of those forever's that you're not sure if you are prepared for... Your mind is going a million miles an hour and a million different directions... Feb 17th was the big blood test day, we get to find out if our IVF process was successful or not, and honestly Dust and I had tried our hardest to not play the guessing game and wait for the real results! So I wake up and head on up to the RE's office, I am excited and also shared to death! I walk in and at this point everyone in the office knows what day it is, The receptionist I check in with asks how I have been feeling and is excited, my nurse that was with my throughout the IVF process comes running up CARRRIEEE, it's the BIG DAY!! It was really fun having people that truely showed they cared taking care of me!!! So They bring me back to the little room, and in comes Phlobotomist Mr. Jenkins - He's excited that he gets to be the first to test my blood to find out if another Jenkins is coming into the world!! So they had to try THREE times to get blood, My GOOD vien was not cooperating, and the nurse kept saying calm down, you look really really nervous! I almost started crying, she could tell, she just grabbed my hand! So, done... NOW the wait for results! I got a few hugs and good lucks, and off I went, I wasn't supposed to hear anything until late afternoon, I knew it would be a long long day!! I got to work at about 10:30 am... And tried to get settled for a second, cause I told everyone the second my phone rings I am running out the door and will be gone for the rest the day!! I got the main things done I went in for and by 11:30 my phone was ringing!! Ahhhh, I grab it my purse and darted... I answered "Um hello!?!"..."Hi Carrie this is Amy"... "Oh yay, Hi Amy"... "So are you available to talk for a second"..."yes I am"..."Well CONGRATULATIONS!!"... "Really, REALLY!?!"(as I am hysterically in tears already, like a waterfall flowing out of my eyes) "Carrie, would you like me to call you back in a few mins to go over the details so you can soak it in".. "I could barely murmur the words ok!"... I was in my car at this point, SPEEDING towards Dustin's work, he told me that whatever I do I better NOT keeping him waiting! lol... So I get to his work, Tried calling him like 3 times no answer!... I sat there waiting for him or the dr. office to call... FINALLY... Dr's office... "Hello" "Hi Carrie, how you doing" "Couldn't be better just letting it all sink in!!" "well let me tell you more details" "ok can't wait" "ok, your hcg level came back at around 650, anything over 100 is pregnant, so your numbers are good, usually your numbers are over 1000 though for twins, but you never know so don't be to surprised if there is at the ultrasound. So your Due date will be Oct. 24th, you need to continue taking progestrone & estrogen until March 26th. Call your OB and let them know you are pregnant, and now I will schedule Vital scan with us for 6wks of your pregnancy, Congratulations and if you have any questions please contact us!" "Thank you so much!!! I can't believe this all!! I am so excited and can't wait to tell my husband" "Good luck, we will see you again soon"...... OH MY HECK!!!! All sorts of emotions were running through me, I was crying, laughing, scared, extatic... Finally Dust calls, I say walk outside, I don't know how I kept it together to sound calm on the phone... He walks out not quite sure what the news was.... I just hugged him and started bawling, So are you ready to be a daddy!?! He was like REALLY, that's awesome! I am so happy!!! We are about to be PARENTS!!! I told him the information and he was like I had a feeling that only one would take if any! I agreed with him! But was happy either way! Just amazed that it was happening for us! Now, just have to wait Until 2/28/11 for the first u/s at 6 weeks!! WAHOOOOOOOOO!!!!! WE ARE FINALLY PREGNANT!!!!

....Ok, Transfer Time....

So after the few week process of stimulating my ovaries, having my eggs extracted, and waiting to hear the news of them, we finally got it!! Saturday morning Feb. 5th is was the big transfer day! This was the next big step we have been trying to get to... Eek, Dust and I wake up and head to the Dr's once again. It's 8am we are about to well hopefully get pregnant! They call my name and back we go! My poor hearts a racing! The Dr comes in and says ok, So we have 8 embroys!! We had 13 eggs retrieved, 11 were mature, and originally 9 fertilized, and one didn't make it... So in the end we had 8, super excited! He said that was really good! All were great quality! So now the decision how many are we wanting to transfer! Dust piped right up, TWO, we decided on TWO! I love it, he is really determined to try for twins, I am not complaining! That would be fun, interesting, exciting! So two it was! He said they would transfer the two best Embroy's! Then he hands me a black and white picture, of the two embroy's, that was it, my eyes filled with tears! Those are our babies! It was such an overwhelming moment, everything so far has been worth it, just to see that! *tears* So we sign the papers, agree to freezing the other 6 embroy's... and it's time to transfer the two!! They do there thing (no details needed) and then I lay in the room for 30 mins. Tears rolling down my face randomly as we think and talk about the possibilities, could this be it!?! The moment... We might really become parents! Wow, overwhelming thought! ;) So we head home to be put on bedrest for a few days. The paper said, sit or lay around the house, you can get up to use the bathroom and shower. Period. haha! I didn't want to do anything, not Even move an inch! lol! So now, we just have to WAIT and WAIT and WAIT.... This part is tough, I must say. I wish I just knew, but I know that I could convince myself either way so I am trying really hard not to making any assumptions yet! I'm just trying to stay relaxed and have no stress, come on and stick babies! I am continuing with the progestrone injections, and Still I AM NOT enjoying these! Holy Moly I think these have been the WORST part, but I tell myself it's for the BEST cause! Well, I am trying to keep sane during this wait... i'm finding it really hard to concentrate on anything!
Please oh please stick!!!

ER... 13!?!... YES

So Monday Jan. 31, 2011 it happened!! I went in at 8:00 am, I was actually extremely nervous!! All the nurses could tell! They all just kept saying you will be fine! You may actually want to come back after this, just for the meds. haha! So I got all ready, and first step an IV... Eek, but ok not so bad, you would think after the last two years I would be totally fine with needles I mean geez the last 2 weeks I have had 3 injections daily! But my nerves still get the best of me! Anyways, I walk into the room and sit in the funky chair, that they tip you right on back in... then the Dr.'s all suited up walk in.. The nurse leans over and says I'm starting your drugs! Um, ya pretty much the last thing I remember!! I know I was awake, and I remember one nurse whispering I am sorry we have to push on your stomach (my left ovary is really hard to get too)! Then I remember waking up to some orange juice, and my hubby sitting next to me! Aw, and it's over! WELL atleast that part!! They were able to extract 13 eggs!! Wahoo!! Now, I have to wait until Weds for the phone call of there quality, how many fertilized / survived and when the transfer day will be!! It's been a trying process, but I am hoping that in the end it will SOO BE WORTH IT ALL!!! Alright, I'm going to relax, I'm still re-coping! ;-)

.... and the fun continues...

Day 9 - went back for u/s and still not much progress. So once again they up'ed my doses. Day 10 - just continued injections Day 11- went back for another u/s there was a bit of progress yay, but still just moving really slowly! They up'ed my follistem one more time and said come back in two days. Day 12 - Injections and patience, this day though I started having some cramping and just sharp pains.. I had a feeling something was happenening! Day 13 - u/s FINALLY what we wanted to see, The DR. was excited I had about 8-10 follicles showing that were atleast 20mm! When I told him I was having cramping he said that good, your body is shocked cause you have never had ovaries this big before!!! So it was time!! He said we are lucky we got it just right, cause alot of times you can overstimulate and we were a little to close to that, but he was satisfied, they took my estrogen levels and I waited for the call to know if they were going to schedule my Egg Retrieval for MONDAY!! EEk!! Saturday about 12:30PM I got the call everything looks good it's a GO!! I did my trigger shot Saturday night! OUCH! Sunday I get the day off, NO injections! Just oral Medications, and I go in MONDAY morning bright and early! So excited the day has come!

..... Here we go....

So it's FINALLY here!! Monday Jan 17th, I started my injections. I started off with Follistem & Repronex! I honestly was terrified! I HATE shots! I didn't know how on earth I was going to be able to do this. Thank goodness for Dustin and him having NO fear! He actually admitted yest, that he liked doing the shots! haha, Of course he would! So summary so far....Day 1 - Eh not so bad! After I stopped laughing Dust did the injections and it wasn't as bad as I pictured! Day 2-3 Ok also, minus the fact at this point I had a constant headache, that I just couldn't get rid of, nothing helped! Day 4 - u/s no progress :( but they said it's normal, especially with PCOS, they just like to watch and make sure. Day 5- I added another injection Cetrotide to the mix. Not to bad, I'm just tender on my belly where all the shots have been, and bruised, headache still there :( Day 6 - Woke up feeling re-freshed, no headache!! Wahoo. Day 7 - continued Day 8 - next u/s Still not to much progress, I still have a gazzillion follicles, and the biggest is only a 10. So tonight I up my dose of Follistem, and return tomorrow morning for another u/s.... So that's my progress so far, Keeping my head high.. They said that having PCOS it can take a little longer to get the follicles ready... Hoping that things progess....

Woah, Jam Packed weekend!

What a weekend!! So Friday morning I had my first Dr. Appt for u/s #1 for my IVF cycle! Eek, I start all Meds Monday.... Then I get a phone call from my CUTE little Grandma, inviting me to go to the Jazz vs. Cavs game that night, not only is it the Jazz game they are tickets in the executive suite front row! They serve full meals, constant drinks during the game, and desert at half time.. You had to dress all up! It was an experience I have never had before... and an awesome one at that! It was so much fun spending time with my Grandma! She's just the sweetest thang! And she LOVES her JAZZ!! She was like a little girl in a candy shop, I loved being able to be there with her!
Then Saturday mid-morning I had a Valentines craft day with all my girlfriends!! It was so good getting together with them all!! We all painted wood crafts and glitterfied them! It's always a fun time! Everyone's crafts turned out extremely CUTE! ;-) I wish I had taken pictures!! I am really horrible at that!! Someday I will get better!
So Then my excitement continued on thru Saturday night... Amie and I went to dinner @ The Olive Garden... Delicious! Then were off to see Spring Awakening... It's a musical! I absolutely LOVED IT!!! It was really risk-ay! Like young people should NOT see this! But We had a blast!! It was really entertaining!! Then afterwards we blasted my glee tunes and drove around for atleast an hr. singing our guts out!! Honestly I lost my voice from singing so loudly! lol
It was a JAM packed GIRLS weekend!! ;-) I had so much fun!! I honestly couldn't have done more! And it kept my mind occupied for the upcoming Monday...

A new GLEEK right here!

January, I have been waiting for YOU, as you will see with my posts ;)!! So this month has been good, exciting, nerve wrecking all at the same time!! So let's start off with my new obsession... GLEE!! Amie my sister-n-law has always loved Glee and has told me to watch it, cause if you didn't know I just love Musical stuff! I always blew it off and never did, I know rude right! Well for Christmas she got the whole first season, so she said take this home and watch it, Sooooo, That was a mistake!! lol. The next week Dustin went snowboarding so I figured what the hey... AND BOOM instant LOVE! I watched it from 1pm to 2 am NON-STOP.. Dust had come home and went right to sleep and I couldn't stop, I just watched and watched!! I finished 22 episodes in 2 days!! I guess I should say One night into the morning! lol that's almost 22 hrs, I know I know, Did I feel lazy sitting there for that long watching, YES! But could I stop, NO!! So instantly I was hooked! And became OBSESSED, I will fully admit it, I mean look I am BLOGGING about it!! lol I instantly feel in love with the characters and the singing, oh oh and dancing! So I bought season one, YAY! And I bought all of the music from the show, DOUBLE YAY! And I have been jamming out to it ever since!! I also found the first half of season 2 TRIPLE YAYA! on Hulu.... watched those within the week, I am all caught up and Sooo ready for the second half of season 2 to begin after the superbowl, what what!! I know I sound crazy, but It really helped to take my mind of the stresses of the upcoming events and just enjoy the time being! It made me feel really good, I'm I cheesy enough yet... I know!! ;-) But it's official I am a GLEEK!

Hello 2011..

Happy New Years!! Goodbye 2010... HELLLOOO 2011!! We got enjoy our new years eve with little Miss Ryleigh coming over to spend the night... Along with her Mommy Kirst & Mr. Jordan came over after work. We all just vegged and ended up watching Inception. It was a pretty good movie, it really was different! It was a good time with my siblings! 2010 had it's good times and definately had it's hard times too... I am ready for 2011, and hoping that there are some GREAT things to come for us! I hope everyone had a good one! Welcome to 2011, wahooo.... (*had to throw in this pic of Ry New Years Eve, She's just so dang CUTE! This is one of the outfits I got her for christmas and bows I made her! So proud, hahaha!)